Earlier this week I was really struggling. Simply put, I felt stupid. Not in an all-encompassing way, but rather in one particular area of my life. When I tearfully shared with a friend how I was feeling, instead of being reassured that I was not stupid, she took my hand in hers and lovingly replied, “It’s okay. We’ve all been stupid.”
At first, I was surprised by this response to my pain. Yet, as I thought about it over the next few days, I came to the conclusion that perhaps the answer to my struggle was not to somehow convince myself that I had not been stupid after all, but to embrace the possibility that I had. I began to ask myself, “Why am I so afraid to admit I was stupid?”
I was torn between feeling that I had been stupid and yet not wanting to admit I had been stupid. I finally realized that if I simply embraced my stupidity, the struggle would stop. My friend was right. We’ve all been stupid and it really isn’t the end of the world.
God does not reject me when I have been a fool, and neither should I reject myself. In fact, God expects me to fail and he has already taken care of it. He doesn’t expect me to fail in a “you-are-pathetic” kind of way. He expects it in a “you-are-human-and-can’t-possible-know-everything” kind of way.
Even when I am surprised by my foolishness, God is not. He understands the challenges and pitfalls of navigating this Earthly life. He knows it’s not easy, and he knows that sometimes we will trip and fall.
He isn’t just aware of it, though. He is very present with us in it. He expects us to stumble now and then, and when we do, he is right by our side waiting to steady us with his loving kindness.
When I reminded myself of the reality that he loves me no matter what, I was finally able to embrace my stupidity. In that moment of wisdom a wonderful thing happened. I felt peace!
Lamentations 3:22 — The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases.