I like new beginnings. I like to rearrange my furniture, change my hair, and reorganize my bookshelves. It gives me a sense of newness and freshness when my days start to feel stale.
Sometimes new beginnings are planned and looked forward to with much anticipation. Other times they are ushered in quite unexpectedly through tearful circumstances. Today, I am experiencing one of the latter types of new beginnings.
Yet, before the new beginning can begin, the old ending has to end. The letting go of what once was, or what you thought it was, can be heart wrenching. The part I hate about grieving is that you absolutely must do it and I don’t want to have to do it!
Still, I know it is necessary, so I have learned to let myself cry. While the tears flow I remind myself that I won’t always feel this way, and you know what? I am always right!
The only thing that makes letting go of the old bearable is to at the same time embrace the new thing starting to take life. Humor also helps. One of my favorite movie lines from the tear-jerker movie Steel Magnolias is when Dolly Parton’s character declares, “Laughter through tears is my favorite emotion.”
It is mine, too. In fact, I got to experience it yesterday when I was crying my eyes out about a recent betrayal. After listening to me blubber on about it for a while, my daughter looked at me lovingly and said the most brilliant words that anyone could have said in that moment. “Never trust someone who dips their potato chips in applesauce.” I needed that morsel of wisdom to lighten my grief and to remind me that life goes on and all will be well once again.
Isaiah 43:19… See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it?