I am proud of myself today. When faced with a challenging situation where part of me started to feel sorry for someone who betrayed me, I did not waiver. I was tempted to loosen my boundaries and second guess my conviction, but I am happy to report that I did not succumb to temptation. Yay for me! I am learning to honor myself!
I have been told that I have a tendency to be endlessly understanding, and going into this situation I didn’t want to make that mistake. I didn’t want to cave in to their wishes just because they showed me their sweet and gentle side and cried a few tears. I didn’t want to betray myself just to make them feel better.
I am glad that I stayed true to myself. It wasn’t easy, though. In fact, at one point I really thought we were going to be asked to leave the restaurant. No one was yelling, but when the distress grew to being quite audible and the tears were flowing freely I was seriously expecting a visit from the waitress. Surprisingly, she left us alone.
Maybe she was hoping we would work it out on our own. I know that’s what my betrayer was hoping. However, that is definitely NOT what I was hoping. I was hoping to remain true to my conviction regarding the whole situation, but I didn’t just hope for it. I did it.
Learning to listen to my gut has been a long time in coming. My whole life I have been taught that everyone knows better than me, and so I ended up giving away my power and betraying myself. Now, I know better. Now, I know that learning to honor thyself is one of the best gifts we can give ourselves. It changes our posture from being stooped over, to standing tall, to soaring toward our dreams!