The other day I learned that my hopes of having a vegetable garden this year will not be fulfilled due to circumstances beyond my control. While it was indeed a disappointment, I was amazed at how quickly I let go of it, like water off a duck’s back. Instead of being discouraged and disheartened, my mind went very quickly toward trusting God.
I found this interesting, because when I was initially offered the opportunity to garden at a property near my apartment, it came about in a way that seemed extraordinarily providential. At the time, it felt like an answered prayer. Yet, when I learned that it wasn’t going to work out after all, my disappointment was remarkably short-lived.
Instead of letting it get me down, I thought about how I would have more free time to work on my writing projects. I also wondered if God wanted my schedule cleared up for other things that he was not quite ready to reveal to me. Perhaps he had things in store for me that would be far bigger blessings than a few square yards of dirt.
it isn’t all about time, though. Often, it is about relationships. Since I won’t be able to grow my own veggies this year, I plan to support a retired couple in my neighborhood who sell what they have lovingly grown in their own backyard garden. I am certain this will also be a blessing, and I hope my patronage will bless them as well.
I haven’t always trusted God so quickly and easily, though. In the past I might have let it ruin my day, or obsess about what I had done wrong to bring this upon myself, or think I was being punished. But I am happy to report that I have grown beyond that kind of punitive thinking. Now, I am seeing how wonderfully freeing it is to be so ducky about this by letting it roll off my back in confident trust that God has everything under control and he is good all the time!!
Those who trust in the Lord are like Mount Zion, which cannot be shaken but endures forever. ~ Psalm 125:1